hello all lovely watchers and friends! ^_^

I think it's about time to update everyone on what's been going on with me now that I have a moment to sit a write it all out. if you're just a watcher and don't care about all the personal stuff (I won't get offended; we're either close friends or not), then just the first 2 are for you. if you're a friend, pleeease read the whole thing. yes, it's a big long post, but I made it as short as possible without cutting out important parts and it'll only take about 10 minutes of your time to read. thanks in advance.


1. I have deleted my alerts for any deviations I haven't gotten to that were submitted before October. I keep saying I'll go through them all, but I simply don't have the time or concentration lately. my sincerest apologies. =/


2. I have made a complete 180 degree transformation in my life (more on that below), and my tastes and comfort/tolerance levels have changed accordingly. so starting right after I submit this journal entry, I'm going to go through my deviations, favorites, and wishlist and delete anything I deem inappropriate to my new lifestyle. so if a piece or more of your work is deleted from my faves or wishlist, please keep in mind that it's nothing personal. if one of your favorite pieces of my own work has been deleted, I'm sorry for that as well. I'll be writing new material and submitting some of my best (older) pictures very soon to make up for the empty space in my gallery.


3. ...gahh, I don't even know where to start. you guys, Jesus has grabbed on to my heart and simply will not let go. and thank God for that! ^_^ I'm such a different person. my whole life I thought I was a Christian, but this is completely different. my life literally revolves around Christ, and it's a magnificent feeling. my depression has left for good, and I no longer feel empty, lost and restless all the time; I am completely spiritually fulfilled, to the point of overflowing. I've become what I thought I never would, and I'm so so thankful for it. also, I'm totally up for sharing my testimony and helping anyone who wants it to change their life around as well! so whether you're thirsty for the kind of fulfillment I've found or simply curious, I'm here to talk to anyone and everyone.


4. the newfound depth of my faith has also made me more sensitive to the things of this world, and there are quite a few things that I can't stand to say, hear, do or be around like I used to. I view it as a fantastically positive thing, but I know a few people do/will resent it. and I completely understand; until a month or so ago, I would've felt exactly the same way. however, just because I understand doesn't mean I will be hiding who I am or what I believe, nor will I pretend not to be offended by things I used to find acceptable. I simply will not be silent anymore. so I plead for anyone who considers me their friend to be respectful of my change of heart and to be careful with me, and for anyone who can't do that for me to be upfront about it and let me know. I know these are heavy words, but I am more serious and passionate about this point than I've ever been about anything else.


5. I turned 18 on Oct. 16th, and I'm so psyched about it! to me, this birthday was a complete launching pad for me to start clearing out the clutter of my life and really settle into my new life and attitude. as I said above, I've changed so utterly and completely that I don't even recognize myself. *contented sigh* what a blessing! ^_^


6. last but not least: in addition to my change of heart and mind, over the last month I've changed a lot of my contact information. my main email address, my IM address, and my living/mailing address are all diferent now, so if anybody wants any or all of that new info, just message me and ask for it.


ok, I think that's pretty much it. if there's anything else you wanna know about or if you just wanna chat and catch up, just message me! ^_^ lots and lots and LOTS of love for everybody, and thanks to anyone who took the time to read this. please leave me a comment! they make me happy.



God bless,
--Grace